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9.30.2017

Saturday mid-morning

One Good Thing: I've accomplished some stuff this morning, things that have been hanging over me a bit: laundry, dishwasher, putting things away, making calls.... I feel like a productive member of the household. Since I'm currently the only member of the household, that's a Very Good Thing!
One Funny Thing: I spent a good deal of time yesterday considering the possibility of going to the pound and getting a dog. Clearly I'm delusional. I could use some furry love, though.
One Weird Thing: There are two people in my life that I had expected to hear from in the last two weeks for sure. One is a relative; one is a bestie. Radio silence from both. Thank God for all the other truly random people I have heard from, and thank God for my hard-earned newish skill of shrugging off the stuff I can't explain. Mostly, shrugging; I'll admit, it's eating at me a little.

One God Thing: "God's got this." I've been trying to keep that as my mental focal point. I lost track of the thought yesterday and started to TOTALLY FREAK OUT for the first time. I have no control over what's going on in the big picture; I have to keep focused on doing The Next Right Thing and also things that will help me not feel stressed. So I cleaned this morning, a little, and put away clothes, and unpacked boxes, and started mentally preparing myself for a closet culling.
One Music Thing: I haven't listened to "fun" music in a couple of weeks. I don't think I can without sobbing. So, sticking with quiet. Thinking about church tomorrow, and this made me realize there'll be music there. So, either I go prepared to bawl my eyes out, or I don't go at all. I'll consider this on the drive(s) today.
One Book Thing: The "book" that's next up to keep me company while I drive is actually a Modern Scholars course on how the brain works. I'm not sure that was a good choice in terms of relaxation, but it will be a good reminder of things I probably am going to need to know. And soon.

9.28.2017

Thursday morning

One Good Thing: I slept a long time last night, pretty much straight through.
One Funny Thing: I'm not feeling the funny this morning.
One Weird Thing: It is strange that I haven't cried in days. I haven't really sobbed at all since this started. There's been some weeping, but no standing in the shower tears. It will come.

One God Thing: I sought the Lord, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. —Psalm 34:4 [see above re weird]
One Music Thing: Not feeling the musical vibe lately. Styx and Boston seem to upset Beast, and since those are his two favorite bands, this has disturbed me as much anything else this week.
One Book Thing: I have a pure junk book (series) to read at the hospital now that the infectious protocol has shut down. I've been wanting to read these books by Darynda Jones for awhile, so here's my excuse to binge.

9.25.2017

Monday night

One Good Thing: Beast was paying much more attention to his surroundings when I left today. Tonight is his last chance to prove he's alert enough to remove the ventilator. If they aren't convinced in the morning, they'll be putting in a tracheostomy and GI tube and removing the breathing tube.
One Funny Thing: I'm turning into quite a bitch at the hospital. Not with the staff or the nurses, but with other patients' families in the waiting room. So far it's just been under-the-breath muttering.
One Weird Thing: There's just so much weird in my life right now, I don't know where to start.

One God Thing: The one thing I have been absolutely certain about through the past 10 days is that God is holding on to us, even if we don't get why this has to be happening.
One Music Thing: Styx. Just Styx.
One Book Thing: I finished the first audiobook I had in the car, and started the second one today. That's a record for sure.

9.23.2017

Saturday morning

One Good Thing: The sun is shining. The one day this week I was the crabbiest was the cloudy, rainy one. Who says weather doesn't affect our moods??
One Funny Thing: Funny-in-the-weird-sense: how Milwaukee continues to be a major part of my life. This was reinforced yet again this week.
One Weird Thing: Oops. Weirdness abounds. Like how the ventilator sounds like a clown car when it goes off.

One God Thing: I'm doing a lot of FROG this week, because what choice do I have?
One Music Thing: I think I will get Spotify back on today and listen to Styx again with Beast. Maybe he'll participate this time....
One Book Thing: I can't read in Beast's room because I have to destroy/clean everything I touch while I'm in there because of C. diff.. I'm reading him magazines and I may snag a People or something from the shop for myself today. I'm still wading through the book on the OED here at home, though.